changes.

Ive been wanting to blog for such a long time now and it seems that things are finally starting to slow down (I hope I'm not jinxing myself). My senior year of college has been in full swing for right at a month now and it seems crazy how time has just flown by. I have experienced so so many new things already, and I've experienced a lot of lasts as well. Let me elaborate...


 This year is my first time to be a PEP leader, the first time as an SI, the last summer spent under my parents roof, the last time to move into e103, the last fall semester of college, the last time to have recruitment practices for ADPi rush, the last recruitment as a sorority girl, the last, first test of the year, the last, first Skyhawk football game, the last time to meet new freshman, the last year to meet new international students and bug them about cooking me good international food, and coming up soon is my last fall break trip with my roommates/best friends. I write all this and think about how absolutely bittersweet these different things are. 


One year from now I won't be back here in my nice little dorm room with my roommates to pick up after me and wake me up if I'm late to class. I wont be passing friends on the way to classes saying hey, hi, how are ya... One year from now I won't be cramming with my roommates and friends for tests. One year from now I will be MARRIED, I will have a real job, I will be a wife, a housekeeper, and a cook. One year from now I will be one flesh with Pete Choukalas (Genesis 2:24, Mark 10:8) I just cannot believe it! He will be my groom and I will be his bride forever and ever. 


I digress: When I think about this I cant help but think about Christ and His bride (the church) and the commitment Christ has to His bride despite all her shortcomings. It makes me think about how my marriage with Pete will be a representation of Christ and the Church and I so desire that, and cannot wait to experience it. Of course I'm also looking forward to the lovey-dovey, cute things that come along with being married, such as waking up next to my best friend, cooking him yummy dinners, spending lazy saturdays folding laundry and cuddling, and morning breakfast & prayer time before our big kid jobs. 


With all of this excitement to look forward to and all the "last times" that are passing me by, my heart seems to be torn in two different directions. I know without a doubt that I am right in the center of God's will, which is beyond comforting, and I just have to continue to rest in that fact. Not worrying about what's to come, not wishing my time away to enjoy what will be in due time, and making a genuine effort to take my time and cherish every single last moment that I have in this journey of my life. 


"We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lose sight of the reason for the journey or miss a chance to see a rainbow on the way." -Gaither